It all started December 9th 2012. I was sufffering from what I thought was a "ruptured Apedix" after feeling severe stomach pain I decided it was best to admit myself to the E.R. After tests and ultrasounds i was expecting the worst. But when the doctor walked in, I was never prepared to hear what came next. "Your Pregnat!!!" With confusion and happiness I waited for Matt to arrive. To give him the news he was going to be a father. He was soo happy. We were excited to start this new chapter in our lives. A family!
"Is it normal to be in this much pain?" is a question I asked alot during my 18 week pregnancy. But surely enough on the ultrasound we saw a very active baby with an amazingly strong heartbeat! Matt and I were so thankful for this reassurence. Vomiting, No appetite (except candy and veggies) and Extreme tiredness was a daily for me. With nothing to compare it to, i just brushed it off as "Normal".
Then Things Changed....
March 13, 2012 I had my 5 month Check-up. Matt had a busy day so I reasured him it was no biggie Dr. Merrill Was just going to do the heart beat sonar. "I was outta the clear" Past that 12 week marker. It was in the bag for me now. In my head I was having a baby aug 20th. As Dr. Merrill was scanning my stomach he just couldnt find the heartbeat. I kept thinking, any second I was going to hear the fast hearbeat and be reassured. 15 minutes later......No Heartbeat. I took a few deep breaths as my doctor told me it's not a big worry that he will just do a full ultrasound just to be sure...I called my Sister and Matt playing it down like here was not a problem. Well my sister saw thru it amd shortly was at the doctoers office with me.
The saddest vision my eyes could see. That beatiful sight we had seen at the last ultrasound. That beautiful flutter and movement. It was no longer there. my sweet baby was not moving.
March 14th I gave birth to Cash Lawrence Remick at 5 months gestation. He was perfect in everyway except for his abdomen. The doctor confirmed my son developed Gastroschisis.
Matt's Sister is a NICU nurse at a local hospital in Tacoma. She explained to us that she sees this condition quite a bit. I began to educate myself. What happened to my Son? What causes this condition?
"Gastroschisis represents a congenital defect characterized by a defect in the anterior abdominal wall through which the abdominal contents freely protrude. There is no overlying sac and the size of the defect is usually less than 4 cm. The abdominal wall defect is located at the junction of the umbilicus and normal skin, and is almost always to the right of the umbilicus".
I had Never heard Of such a condition. "What on Earth did "I" do to cause this?
Did I eat too much candy? I shouldn't have skipped that one day I didnt take my prenatal........"
After We layed our Son in the ground, we prayed for Peace beyond measure. That God would help us to cope. That he would help us to take this experience and use it for good.
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